Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Abandon All Hope, Ye Who Enter Here!

It's day 12 of my chapter edits. I'm on chapter 6, and the possibility of my brain waves causing a nuclear aplocalypse seems exponentially more possible.
...exactly people! --This could really happen--start getting worried!
Here is my editing pile of headaches.
It's a good headache to have-If I was reading someone else say this and complain, I'd be like, "SHUT UP! You're lucky to have finished a first draft!"
-I know that and I love this process, but it's also the scariest thing ever-like starting a relationship with someone you've always wanted- because I've wanted to have my writing out there for so long-I remember wanting that in 2nd grade when I re-wrote 'Rudolph' to make it better :)
I feel I will never reach the quality of writing that is in my head. I'm not a perfectionist by any standard in life-my car is a water bottle graveyard, but I hold myself to a high level with writing because a dream is perfection--You can never be as good as you are in a dream.

...and Jasmine is giving me like...no support. Look at her---
...no help at all.

10:39 PM editing update: Jasmine still no help - Tho she's moved into my lap which makes typing a little more difficult.
10:43 PM : If I can be reincarnated, I want to come back as Jasmine.
...It must be nice.

8 comments:

down and out chic said...

oh good luck! it sounds pretty exciting...

beth said...

Ugh. I so know how you feel. I've actually reached a stand-still...or at least halting...of my current WIP because I love the story so much and don't feel that I'm doing it justice.

Crimogenic said...

You have the appropriate music playing in the background. I feel your pain...

Lady Glamis said...

WHOA! Slow down, sweetie! Enjoy the journey... step back. Remind yourself why you write. Love your story. If it's giving you so much of a headache, take a small break. Oftentimes we are moving forward when we can't see it. Every edit you do makes you a better writer. It has worked that for me. Keep going!

drollgirl said...

jasmine! HELP HER, FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! hahahahah. your cat is about as helpful as mine, but whaddya gonna do.

hope the writing goes well. i cannot imagine how stressful that is. wait. i can. it is as bad as painting, which drives me out of my fucking mind, but i keep going back to it. curses.

Awesome Sara said...

jasmine oh jasmine... i want to hug you till your eyes pop out!!

penny, your novel of comments on my blog was like really nice. its nice to know i'm not the only one who feels like crap at a job. you are perfect and I adore you!

Dooder City said...

Looks like an amazing trip! That voodoo fest sounds like fun!

K @ Blog Goggles said...

I've always wanted to come back as my dog. He's sort of got it made.

And good luck! I'm sure you'll do great :)